Life Update April 4th, 2026 (Train of Thought)

Hi Reader,

It's been a while since I've posted content. A lot has happened in the last 3 months that has both distracted and deterred me from doing so.

I'm now combating the earliest of warning stages of Liver problems. I have a fatty liver with some scarring which means if my life doesn't change dramatically I may one day end up in liver failure and/or get liver cancer. I'm working with my doctor to prevent that. He's put me on the weight loss drug Wegovy, which apparently also is qualified for removing fat from the liver. I'm now in week 2 of the drug and lost 7lbs so far. 45 lbs. in total since July of last year.

From 305 lbs. to 260 lbs.

A diet plan book and salad.

I'm still on the job hunt to get back to work in my field... It's been since September that I've been looking. I'm starting to give up hope that I'll ever work in my field again. It's a down economy thanks to our president's policy decisions. I feel like those people in the movie My Fellow Americans... Since September I have submitted 40-100 resumes every week to full time, contract, and remote gigs all across the U.S. I've sent out more than 1600 applications in the last 7 months (average of 57+ resumes per week). I've applied to marketing, project management, event planning, restaurant server, barback, dog sitter jobs, etc. Anything I can think of and the only jobs that seem to have interest are sales gigs.

As everyone knows, sales jobs funnel people in constantly, keep you for a few weeks at the bare minimum cost and then cut you loose if you don't meet their immediate and high expectations, no insurance, no benefits. It's just immediate and constant pressure to out preform their expectation metrics and that version of stress is far too toxic- demanding a high sweat equity for a fractional gain.

It's been a demoralizing period. If I had the money, I'd be doing a bunch of different certifications right now, but I'm too broke and too proud to ask my family for help any more than they already have. I feel trapped in a cycle of failure and confidence destruction.

That being said, I'm still trying to air on the side of positivity. I've been learning about and having the freedom to focus on taking care of my body. I've shrunk my life down to the bare essentials which has helped me see who actually cares about me; it has shown me who my true friends are. I'm building a powerful foundation for myself. So, in that regard, it's been a great benefit to be going through this... in jeopardy for my professional career.

With God's help one or both things will be fixed soon. But as my mom is intent on saying, "what's meant to be, will be." Wish me luck!